Friday, May 29

before May leaves us...

saya agak sensitif ya kalau isu bulan May.
kepada sesiapa yang bercadang untuk jaga hati saya,
sila jot down, bahawa; saya dan May takkan serasi seperti 2 tahun lepas.
tapi i doubt anybody's gonna jot that down (except si bestie, dia nda payah jot down, masuk otak dia secara auto jo),
sebab if soal taking into consideration people punya feelings saya la pemenang.
macam marah pula intonasi saya menaip ne.
bukan marah,
penat.

so before May leaves us,
i just wanna make it clear,
mungkin saya bukan la moved on sangat kan.
i mean, itu adalah forgiveable ba kan?
maybe some (someone) are meant to share bigger parts of the heart,
tho akhirnya bukan semestinya menjadi pemenang.
tak brapa forgiveable,
sudah erase tapi belum move on.
TAK TELLY OK

May lalu,
cita-cita saya....
aduiiii sakit di ingat balik
nda pa la, i'd call besti besok, i'd tell her apa tu cita-cita
(sebab dia sija yang care tu)
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ok ok quickly i'd tell last May cita-cita saya nanti ada masa yang sesuai antara my birthday dan birthday yang bulan depannya tu kalau jumlah hari antara dua birthday itu di divide kepada dua akan dapat satu hari in the middle between birthday saya dan birthday yang the otheR dan hari itu lah hari yang sesuai untuk dam dam dadamm...dam dam dadammm...tapi syukur alhamdulillah bukan rezeki maksudnya mesti ada yang lebih baik. habis cerita. the end. bye. gudnyt. saya baru 23 mau masuk 24.

Monday, May 25

short update

minta maaf, saya punya blogger-mind pegi vacay lagi...
nda dpt cari apa2 intresting to write about...
maybe saya sudah turn to be uninteresting ne tau...
uh-oh...

1. saya penat di kelilingi orang 'sponge' yang sentiasa mahukan haba 'spotlight' untuk mengeringkan diri mereka. kemudian, bila sudah kering, mereka ini akan 'suck like a sponge'. suck segala2nya. attention anda, energy anda, attention anda, pity anda, attention anda, attention anda dan attention anda. kesemua permintaan ini akan dirangkum, menjadi 'spotlight' (maksudnya mendapat semua attention). maka bila kering, cycle akan berlaku over and over and over again....and again and again and again....ampun dosa, saya perlukan pematahan (i need a break).

2. semalam my nephew tanya "ngah, angah tau ka babu? angah ne babu ne..." cissssss mentang2 tua nya (my eldest bro) mo kawin sudah, jadi angah nya ne bujangan yang babuan sudah...ya la sepa la saya ini, terusan di ejek menjadi bujangan yang jadi babu....haiiiran macam mana budak 3 tahun pandai cakap2 begitu

3. roxy ada headphone JBL smart

4. lybby coming home soooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn mari test power SLR sama2 babe!!

5. dk promise, kalau ujung tahun dia pulang dia nda kurus2 juga, dia blanja saya makan steamboat. kalau me yang nda kurus2, me yang blanja steamboat. kalau kami sama2 kurus, kami p makan steamboat masing2 bayar. kalau kami dua2 menggumuk, kami blanja noni n tini makan steamboat kakakakakaka (buduh punya deal)

6. saya setuju dgn bestie yang cakap macam mana pun kita pusing cerita, kalau salah tetap salah. period. nda payah beribu satu cara mo defend diri. atau cakap org lain yang salah. ini common sense.

7. jahit manik, jahit manik, jahit manik. awas kamu kalau sudah time raya kamu nda dtg tgk stok yang saya jahit sampai separuh buta itu

8. adakan customer tu bersungguh2 betul flirting...bukan juga flirting as in 'can-i-get-ur-number' style...macam cakap manis2 bah...punya hampa dia kalau saya sambung "nanti bawa la org rumah tgk2 baju kurung yang stok raya punya"...mesti dia rasa effort dia kena brush-off tu kan. (soal effort jangan main2 bos. bisa say sorry satu petang jadinya). jadi i just keep quiet, tapi kalau dia terusan cakap manis2 tadi memang saya akan guna line yang seperti di atas. nasib dia nda meneruskan usaha. takut ngkali dia tgk saya pegang tasbih, takut balatentera dari Atas dtg heret dia keluar kakakakakaka

9. saya penat bkerja, tapi siapa tidak penat kerja kan. even kerja tu TIDUR pun mesti penat sebab mesti tidur ikut time

k la guys. kamu pun penat sudah baca me merepek.
ttyl.

Friday, May 15

details magnified x15juta

ok...
badan dia beruang,
tapi huruf di kaki dia R
okeh
Signs always come in funny ways
correction
"signs" always come in funny ways

ndada la,
org "critical-thinkers"* like me sija yang suka "cari" signs padahal teda ne
apa la dosa beruang n huruf R sampai di katakan begitu
ok ok everybody, rub my words off
terima kasih air-coRn (haha RENNNNN!! typo typo) jenama YORK
kerana mu kami dapat patung ne
ndada ekor lagi tu jadi nda payah di kasi cacat lagi
kalau nda kasi cacat nanti tym The Day sibuk lagi patung ne minta roh saya
padahal roh saya sibuk angkat dosa berguni2
hahahahahahhahaa
ketawa konon, nda lucu pun (saya ja sendiri rasa lucu kekekeke)

*critical-thinkers tu ialah org2 yang berfikir tersangat advance, penyakit ne. nama saintifiknya CRITICAL-ANALYZER sebab semua barang pun mau di pikir dari depan sampai blakang lepas tu dari blakang sampai depan.

kisah handphone yang getek

yesterday,
handphone saya getek
dia mo berkenalan dgn aspal
bila buka pintu
dia pun terjah keluar
terus dia dpt berjumpa dgn aspal
BARRRRRRRRRR
begitu la bunyinya
BAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
la juga bunyi hati
PACAH rasa hati
getek punya handphone
kan ada lovebite sudah
calar jo
tkupak
tkupak
tkupak
kin panas
getekkkkk punya handphone
nasib saya beli pakai duit
kalau pakai daun
lama sudah saya ikat ko di kaki
pasti sliding2 macam org men rollerblade
biar puas ati ko ngigis di makan aspal
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benci benci, itu juga handphone di bawa tidur

Tuesday, May 12

bajugging

setelah sekian lama bual2 kosong tu, akhirnya me n noni pg juga jogging. kasi jadiiiiiii sija sama dia.

laporan

1. kami (saya) memang sudah jadi ayam tua. kalau dulu jogging dlm byk2 style pun boleh. jogging sambut bola, lari siring, lari pegang tanah, lari pegang lutut, lari lompat bila wisel...apa lagi apa lagi...apa sija jenis lari me bulih bikin....kalau baru lari padang rugby 5 round pun nda byk complain (tapi paling lama duduk lepas tu me lah). nah skrg, baru tu 4 lap, sudah lalah (penat). bagus lagi noni bulih lagi p sprint one round. kalau saya, kalau mo merasa putus jantung pegi la bikin sprint2 segala.

2. waaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiii punya siuk berpeluh2 tu...lama sudah nda bpeluh like dat...paling pun time kemas bilik (behhh ada kaliah)

3. hehe saya masih boleh pegang tanah with out bending yeaaaahhhh ertinya muscle me belum kong lagi

4. (paling penting) nony ari ne bawa minuman...minuman famous yang semua org kenal...

one hundred plus

begitu la yang dia blang...okehh...
cabutsssssssssssss kena tembak la me kalau dia baca ne
here's to a more healthy life..

Saturday, May 9

Green Tea

Friday seems to be a nice day to tidy up few things in the shop. serabut juga hati tgk kadang2. so decided to re-tag few items, stock check, dusting.........and i got tired so i stopped hehehe...

while cleaning out a few stuff on the counter (which i didn't succeed, before closing counter jadi bersepah lagi balik -- HABIT), i found an aromatherapy oil & the burner. mo juga pasang, tapi teda mancis. tidak kan juga mo minta sama org bata. hehehe. teringat i have a burner in my room too, i decided to bring it home since it's only collecting dust kalau di kedai.

bila sampai rumah, i put a few drops, burn it, left my room and pegi mandi. when i enter my room

ASTAGA YA AMPUN DOSAAAAAA

...rupanya inilah that one smell i'm always very careful to avoid, which is bau green tea. sedap memang baunya, but it reminds me a lot of 2004. adui tidak tidak tidak. kisah cinta mengundang parahhhhhhhhhhhh (eseeeh sastera laitu kunun)

saya jenis attach memory bersama dgn smell and songs.
so biasanya perfume anda,
atau bau sabun saya,
atau lagu kita,
akan selalu trigger memory saya tentang "suatu masa dulu"

nah ini teringat lah motor ride (woot woot!!), air kelapa, TUARAN, hp yang kena pijak, almari yang pecah, eroy & sobri (awww), poly, football matches, seliuh saya yang di rawat, tumpang jeep, and a funeral. hmmmmm........

i was thinking of putting the burner off, but i decided to let it burn because i want to erase that hurtful memories and replace it with "now". i figure, kalau sudah selalu terhidu tu nanti jadi la tiada maksud sudah this smell. kononnya 2004 tu kena overwrite la. hard, but i'll manage. sayang juga mo let go of my smell-memory, because everytime tarik nafas, i feel macam i'm back in 2004. drama drama, i know!

mungkin org detail macam saya ne tiada dua nya kalau di sabah.

Tuesday, May 5

me, my failures...

i started my 2008 on May last year (was a late start) and ended my 2007 on June (double year in 2008??). i ended my 2008 by December last year, but still, it feels like i just started my 2009 this month (what's with May?). don't even ask what happen between Jan-Apr. my head was on vacation.

since most people would start with new years resolution, i'd start with my failures (because i'm not most people). so my boringness starts here :) read on people.

1. i can never floss right. still until today, the hard to reach teeth are....hard to reach. my bro bilang kasi panjang bah tu floss, then baru i understand why the floss d jual panjang berjela-jela which seems hard to finish. i always buy new ones if ilang sija. namanya habis floss memang nda pernah. so i tried kasi panjang2 and lilit dulu di jari. but still i can't floss right. in that vunerable position of opened mouth, my saliva jatuh macam org kena sawan yang can't control their body behavior. i should search in youtube or something on how to floss gigi geraham. eeeewwwww, i know.

2. i can never force myself to clean my room. it's always "nanti nanti nanti, ujung minggu". and when weekend comes i'd rush to work sebab "weekend customers" kan byk. jadi i don't know when actually i have time to do it. bilik ada nampak clear skit kalau it's laundry day (so in my defense, saya bukan hambur barang, cuma laundry saja kasi semak bilik). wait until BAC read dis, they sure have something else to say. kalau dulu mau tidur di bilik asrama saya, tpaksa tangan dorg jadi wiper untuk surung semua barang "out of the way" if dorg mau limpang di katil.

3. talking bout time management, i can never manage my time. yet i always complain about not having enough time. kalau driving slalu pun marah2 macik or pacik di depan yang pandu slow2. "apa kamu punya satu hari 30 jam ka until u can drive so slow??". i think most of my time is wasted on complaining about other people.

4. saya selalu mengata org. i need to change. i guess semua org pun suka mengumpat, n bual2 kosong bout other people, but that need to stop. byk dosa lain i can collect (like lying to my mummy that i'd clean my room soon)

5. BREAK MATI. selalu pun time driving saya break mati. nanti kalau sudah mau tukar break-pad, buat muka 3sen sama si daddy. tapi mesti kena reject sebab duit 1sen nda kena trima bank sudah. adehhhhhhhh

6. cuci kereta???? saya mo cuci kereta??? cukup la satu kali ja dulu...i'd rather send it to the car wash

7. satu lagi bual2 kosong yang famous dlm BAC "mari kita p main badminton" <<< nah this never took place ok. never. selalu pun bjanji, nanti slalu pun ada something come up yang menyebabkan kami nda pegi. add-on BAC si ajik (wawing c nony, my cuzen) lagi kick, siap tanya "kalau mo men badminton mau sewa court brapa la tu?" nah kalau mau free mari jogging di likas. ini jogging lagi bkurun sudah di janji tapi nda pernah berlaku. hanya bila masa BAC ada tournament netball baru mo p training. itu pun byk complain.

8. buka kedai 10.30am is a never. NEVER. 10.30 am tu baru mo cari kunci kereta (30 minit punya crita)

9. urusan-urusan official dgn office (bank or tenant management) itu adalah bukan saya yang urus. saya-nda-pandai-berurusan-di-office. nasib kerja sendiri.

10. one night, i saw this desperate housewives punya ceta where edie n susan tstuck di bawah (bawah mana i pun tak tau). and edie mbentang kertas to make a time-line on when susan is actually "out of man", which is near to never. i think i should do that too. although 2009 is paktoh year, tapi since i just started my 2009, i still can make amendments. myb i should take a break on being with anyone. i just wanna be with me...

i think 10 is enough. i'm still working on some. hope i'd succeed this time. watch out for another failure list on May 2010. i hope my list gets shorter.

Saturday, May 2

when i dream


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I could build a mansion that is higher than the trees
I could have all the gifts I want and never ask please
I could fly to Paris,it's at my beck and call
Why do I live my life alone with nothing at all?

But when I dream, I dream of you
Maybe someday you will come true

But when I dream, I dream of you
Maybe someday you will come true...

I can be the singer or the clown in every room
I can call up someone to take me to the moon
I can put my makeup on and drive the men insane
I can go to bed alone and never know his name

But when I dream, I dream of you
Maybe someday you will come true

But when I dream, I dream of you
Maybe someday you will come true...


today feels a lot like my birthday...
get more than i wanted...

out of norm

dis few days,
i've forced myself to adjust to new rituals
(how can it be 'rituals' if it's new?)
uuugggghhhh
i can't stand it
i can't stand it
i can't stand it

i'm stationed at karamunsing until this week ends,
half of my time is spent baby-sitting
(c amir kencing di pangkuan me lagi)
[sepa suruh me lambat bgn p teman dia kencing]
everything seems like out of place
2 minggu sudah me tidak off from work

missing some things are not healthy
:(
praying for next week to come sooner

 
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