aku tersepit!

mana satu kekaseh hati ku?
aku bingung memilih...
yang itu, atau yang ini?
atau harus kah ku madukan saja keduanya, selayaknya hidup ku?
owhhh theeedak! ('oh tidak' dalam gaya dramatik ala2 wayang 60an di mana kekasEh nya meninggalkan dirinya)
harus ku nilai servis, tapi bukan itu adat hidup ku!
selagi bukan milik ku, tak sanggup ku menjamah walau sekadar membelek anggota...

holga baru. holga memang idaman hati ku. holga baru ini 35mm. holga ini chantek. holga ini baek punya! tapi sungguh huduh rupa fizikal nya. betul2 macam kamera mainan atau kamera yang org akan senentiasa salah anggap sebagai 'lapuk' padahal dia adalah lomo. lomo tak lapuk. lomo cool.

owh theeedak.
aku sungguh bingung...
mungkin hasil 'servis' nya dpt ku ukur dan ku timbang?

ghairah aku dibuatnya.

ini. ini lagi masalah satu. ini pun chantek. ini nama oktomat. dia pandai potong gambar jadi 8 macam potong kuih pun ada juga. lybby sudah ada ne, tapi xpernah tgk result dia. ini buat aku bingung. ini buat aku menilai gerhana yang menimpa diri. aku suka action, jadi aku suka la ambil gambar in action. gambar potong 8 pada detik yang bbeza ne memang dpt capture action yang berlaku.

kalau nampak begini, ghairah nda? aku ghairah. aku tersepit.


KALAU SEBEGINI, WALAU APA PUN KEPUTUSAN KU, SAVINGS KU TETAP TERGADAI. BERGADAI UWANG DEMI NAFSU. APALAH AKU KALAU BUKAN INSAN BIASA, PEDAGANG YANG HINA.

Ya Allah, kuat kan Iman ku. pada malam yang larut ini, aku mabuk chenta! bahasa pun sungguh sastera, akibat lah menonton Romeo & Juliet (my fav movie!!). sebelum aku merepek lebih lanjut, better i go to sleep. bsuk mau ambil tini lagi. dia sungguh tidak kisah kalau aku dayus. bagus la tu tini! :)

today

we're soooooo back to square one babe!

second take should be better :)

SKODENGGGGGGGGG

apa saya buat, saya buat, saya buat.

the busier i get, the more i feel like SLACKING.
lagi banyak kerja mau buat, lagi i feel like leaving everything aside...main game la, turun jalan-jalan tgk barang, or pegi lunch yang lama2 and jauh2 heeeee....(thank God i can always pungut si Grace jalan)

actually tiada pressure kerja, cuma sendiri yang melambat2 kan kerja, so one after another kerja tu bertindih-tindih and menjadi lah masalah. sana juga mau buat stock-check & stock-tag, sana juga tempahan manik...and recently yang lagi memeningkan kepala ppl booking for wedding photo session...adedehh...terror pun tara...mau tolak pun susah, mau terima lagiiii berat...

talked to dad about an offer a make-up artist made me; join her so she can offer better service for bride&groom la...because her dad pun sudah jadi videog, so she need a photog....kiranya full service la dia ada.... but i'm still thinking2 (pikir-pikir) mau ka tida....len la kalau terror kan...but the make-up artist cakap teda masalah lah, sure handle-able (boleh di tangani). all that dad said was 'as long as it doesn't interfere with your work for me, you should go ahead, get experience!'....& i sambung in my heart 'get MONEY!' heheehehehe...

owhhh...sungguh boring 2-3 hari ne...byk kerja...but still i'm here uploading pictures in flickr, keluar tangkap gambar, main MadCaps (kesukaan), downloading Gossip Girl and watching it over & over again, blogging, texting, on the phone, msn....antah lah!! i wish my work can work itself heeeeeee....skrang pun i'm supposed to jahit manik, tapi masi lagi blogging and dloading themes from zedge.com (syok woooo gerenti!!)

where is my priority?

visitor

hi Gastrik, dah lama nda berkunjung. saya seronok betul kalau kita dtg melawat. saya memang suka tunggang2 di katil wrestling angin dalam perut. saya lagi suka kalau sudah makan tu, muntah lah pula. saya tak kisah lah gastrik kalau terpaksa berperap di bilik. len kali dtg jgn lupa bawa your best friend si Migrain tu, boleh lah kita wrestle perut dan hentak kepala!

****aw...it's good to be in love....hearts filled with thousand ships!

GOSH I'M SO RANDOM!

ya i promised to upload pictures of Kak Dayang kawin...nanti la i upload when my visitor si Gastrik ne beredar k... huuuu :'(

new member joining Canon Family

canon EF-S 55-250mm f/4-5.6 IS

satu lagi meriam buluh yang akan masuk my canon family! yahuu!! getting it on monday, hopefully semuanya ok saja...

after this, senang lah mau candid gambar org yang jauh nun di sana wahahaha (ketawa jahat)

lepas dpt ne kena lah test-drive lense ne di mini zoo lokawi n ambil gambar monkey2 and hyppo, gajah, zebra (tedalah mini tlampau nampak gayanya). 2-3 hari ne tidur pun nda lena la ne, mandi nda basah...tapi yang penting MAKAN TETAP KENYANG wahahahaha

look what they brought home

it was so big, that mum have to 'use' other method untuk mensiang ikan ne. penyisik yang khas pun can't do the job, let alone a mere fork. mum used pisau daging untuk maksud mensiang. pisau daging?? i'm lost for words to describe a knife which is mightier than a kitchen knife yet not mighty enough to be called PARANG. yes, i need to polish on my Bahasa Melayu.

ya, ya. it could be that it's me yang jakun. nda pernah kah nampak ikan begini besar?? uhh, no. the last time i checked i'm a casual photographer, not an avid pengail, nda hari2 nampak ikan begini basar. for 10 minutes, i sat there with my mom, menayangkan kejakunan yang tahap maksima, macam kebaru-baruan. and in case ur wondering (if u open this picture in large), my 50mm didn't fail to be sharp, i was the one fail to be steady. bau ikan tu betul-betul menggangu otak dan otot-otot tangan. i'm clearly not a fan of fish :)

it's the season

wah teruk sekali this week. FLU geng. one of the worst i've ever had. all curled up in bed, sneezing badly at work (i'm sure my bro pun takut kena the flu from me, cuz that means amir will get it too and eventually his wife will catch it too), nose runny, eyes watery, body feels cold but my head is steaming hot!

sigh...means no photography outing this week :( this sneeze could literally make my nose come off! i guess it's the flu season, apart from me, 3 of my friends also have the flu (though i'm positive one of them got it from me, sorry babe heeee)

so everyone else who didn't catch it, arm yourself with more vitamin-C. as for me, i'm going to my doctor tomorrow.

Sungai Mengalong

akhirnya, budak-budak ini (sepupu-sepupu, adik, dan anak buah) sudah merasa mandi di air sungai mengalong (juga tidak dinafikan mesti ada yang terminum juga air sungai mengalong), baru lah boleh mengaku "Ya, saya anak jati SIPITANG".


my sister claims that she's 'terlampau bandaran' because she never got the chance to enjoy 'swimming' in Sungai Mengalong, padahal sungai tu di belakang rumah saja. when i was younger, every Hari Raya i looked forward to 3 things (a)meeting with cousins (b)FOOD galore and (c)mandi di Sungai Mengalong. Mulanya uja besia (sikapnya Pacik Salim jaan Angah Mastul) ada biawak tu Sungai Mengalong tu. au mengasi tu caita besia tu, we were out of the water in a nick of time! that's the only way they can pull us out of the water, by telling such stories. i think when my sister was younger, we didn't continue swimming at the sungai because most of my cousins are getting older like me, jadi kiranya malu lah kan bmandi2 di sungai sudah, and the little toddlers were really little (belum qualified untuk mandi) and aunties and uncles pun sudah limpas zaman kan mbawai kanak-kanak mandi. so for my sister Zura, yesterday was her chance (though not really swimming lah, we were only walking in flood water because simpang jalan tu tanggalam baah aing sungai mengalong) to know what it feels like to have air sungai mengalong between her legs. au bejasa ne sungai mengalong ne.

ani tah anak KADAYAN damanya -- this is what we call as anak kadayan. my cousin acha and my nephew amir dgn seluar pinjam nya tu. nampak betul xmuat kan? dua-duanya berenti mandi when my brother caught them swallowing too many water.. kalau di sungai nda pa jua, ani di jalan raya depan rumah ne, air banjir dari sungai mengalong sj. sebenarnya ndada yang di izinkan daddy untuk mandi aing baah (air banjir), but it started with one cousin...then another, and another, and another, hujung-hujung semua pun dalam air sudah -- including my brother yang claim he's only there 'untuk jaga anak' but i know deep down it's not that! ha!

ini namanya bgubang -- small sampan. doesn't look like my cousins are getting out of the water anytime soon...perhaps they haven't heard the story about biawak? heee mesti sepantas kilat dorang blari naik if they did.

bukan main lagi dorang sengaja masukkan air, as if they're finding the thrill in scooping out the water later on.

taking pictures and freezing their memories gave me great satisfaction, because i know how they feel playing in water. it feels like 14 years ago past so fast, but at last i can reconnect the feeling through the joy i see in their eyes. where ever we go, sungai mengalong tetap di hati, no matter what!

this was what it looks like around the house...

the actual river only starts after the rusty 'tong', so yang bahagian depan ne actually air sungai yang naik. mum pointed out and says 'sungai ne nampak macam bhantu saja' and later she carries on telling us stories about the famous dragon that lived up on a mountain, and everytime it floods, it is said that the dragon is also coming down from the mountain. some call this dragon 'tambuakaa' in mother tongue. my grandma later tells me that this 'tambuakaa' is GIGANTIC and is very long. 'maasai kau telihat kah nik?' -- have u ever seen it urself? and she said... 'au mistiiiiiiiiii lah inda maasai'. idih. i thought the long mistiiiiiii means she ever saw one. she said only few people did, but she assured me that there's such thing as 'tambuakaa'. interesting. more on tambuakaa here (a link to blogger A.S Kasah). tangah, minjam ku blog mu ah! thx :)

sungai mengalong, mun ku inda takanang yang aku ne pun basaa sudah, batah sudah ku mencabuu dlm aing tu kalamaie.

curiosity makes the kid turn away

my best shot this week. zoom skit gelang amir, it's PEMUDA BN SEDIA GEMPUR.
Pemuda yang sangat lah muda.

Kerusi N28 Sindumin

yesterday was voting day for Malaysia. sadih jua bila tlihat byk negeri yang di perintah oleh parti pembangkang. We, in the family strongly believe that 'there's always an ending to a beginning' and i'd always add that '...and often it's going to be very painful'. why so? sebab lumrah manusia, temaha tamak haloba, anything that they can get more of -- surely they will tighten the grip of it instead of stepping down. so once the 'END' hits in, it's going to be painful. example? Datuk Sami Vellu (or Value they like to call him) sudah bertanding 9 penggal! bukan kita tdk suka Datuk Sami Vellu, but Pak Lah should have send pendekar yang lebih tangkas, changes should be made before org jemu mengundi yang samaaaa saja for the past 32 years or so. kebanyakkan kerusi yang dimenangi pihak pembangkang mempertaruhkan muka baru dan muda.

election 2004 : PKR menang satu kerusi saja.
election 2008 : Jari kaki jari tangan pun nda cukup mau kira brapa dorang sudah menang
election 2012 : If still no changes, then a new dawn for Malaysia tu jadi realiti, but what kind of dawn i'm not sure. more like a dusk for masyarakat pro-kerajaan UMNO.

what changes we need? remember what Tun Dr M said, 'satu penggal cukup...' tapi nampak gaya nya 'tiada lah janji-janji begitu...' ok as u wish...

APA LA MAU JADI SAMA MALAYSIA, pembangkang sudah ada suara besar dalam parlimen. hopefully, suara besar saja la. kalau suara kuat tu, mengkhuatirkan. hopefully everything would be ok, i know so little, masih mentah dalam politik.

yesterday i was given the privilege to become 'unofficial photographer' for calon N28 Sindumin. actually nda la terror sangat, saja ja testing my 'reporter shots' konon. cheh!

Calon N28 Hj Ahmad Hj Bujang mbantu ayah, Hj Bujang Jamal setelah siap membuang undi di SK Sindumin. walaupun tidak dpt berjalan, namun tidak mematahkan semangat.

'ani besalam inda dapat batah2 ne kaang uja dangan ku bkimpin lagi'

the result was in a bit after 9 p.m (if i'm not mistaken). Hj Ahmad Hj Bujang (HJ A HJ B) won with majority 1,904. i think orang kampung sipitang already expected this, as N28 was never in the hands of the opposition party. but HJ A HJ B did made some early changes, he managed to pull some 236 voters that voted for the opposition on last election (based on majority won bt Datuk Sapawi Hj Ahmad on 2004).

SYABAS, lepas ne boleh lah blanja makan reporter ne heeeeee

at last!

yes, i know, readers myb yawning because most of my post is photography-related, i promise i'd blog about something else next time *wink*.

as i told yesterday, today is a joy day as it's the day my 50mm f/1.8 II joins the family!

my skill may suck, but this lense doesn't! i'm still stumbling here and there with configuration, but the bokeh (blur efect) of this pic is to die for!

another to join my canon camp...

yeah! everybody be happy! i'm gonna get my 50mm f/1.8 II tomorrow...gonna get that nice bokeh on all pic after this...as my daddy said, this is such a spoilt child hobby...once started, can never be stopped. i guess my mom n dad accepted that a few hundreds ringgit ago!

above is the lens referred to as 'fantastic plastic' as it can achieve a very nice bokeh like the black&white picture above..it's el-cheapo yet very satisfying!