here is, to a better year.

here's to the new year:

1. hopefully to become tougher, strong willed, and more determine (isn't that all the same thing?)
2. no more unresolved things. everything that happened in one day, should be conclude and should be locked, and kept away to never be ungkit2
3. no more giving face to guys who are insecure about their heights! if u can't catch this fish don't even try...move on!
4. no more saying 'yes, i'll do it' but i really what i mean by that is '....i'll do it until u ask me to do it the 2nd, 3rd, 4th time!'
5. no more unplanned shopping spree (my weakness) cause money really doesn't grow on trees.
6. saving should be something real, not just an angan2.
7. the world doesn't end if i don't have matching make ups.
8. stop saying how expensive gas it getting, cause the thing is i don't have a car and daddy's car is always full. just fill that up.
9. no more going to shoe stores buying shoes that i already have the twin in my closet. beige is beige. pink is pink. black is black. i don't need 4 pairs of the same color.

all in all, resolutions are all about how i spend my money. mudahan rezeki diberkati cause i knw tonnes of setan are packed in my bag calling my name to do an unplanned shopping. wwwwwahahaha. baby nikki, i'm coming! i'm saving every single cent to own u!

yesterday's traffic

yesterday, while cruising...

i was clearly trippin' (hehe)

my task yesterday was to drop off inventory at Karamunsing's branch and then go to CPS to assist my bro in coding the sale item. the time taken to go from Karamunsing to CPS= 45 minutes!

by that time i was really hungry and i didn't think twice and makan di dalam kereta. hoho. sotong and driving? fatal combination. hehe. then there's a taxi behind me dgn selamba nya potong masuk in front of me dgn tajam nya, so i have no choice but to let him be (with a honk dari awal dia mo masuk sampai la i can't see him). i think, i'm positive, dia tu sebenarnya dangki (jealous) to see me eating inside my car.
the said taxi! this was taken in front of waterfront, the traffic jam was terrible! teda yang tgk lampu, semua main langgar saja. i? follow hehe. from warisan to cps parking took me 20 minutes. i can feel my fuel hilang begitu sahaja. and everybody yang terkena jam kemarin memang semua kenduri di Shell afterwards.

eye on Malaysia? NICEEEE. when we see this view, it's pretty self-explanatory.

OR



are all eyes on HINDRAF? go figure. while searching for this picture, some of the caption i found would be 'UMNO musuh kita!'. ouchie. that's kinda harsh. and declaring ada rusuhan kaum, tomorrow? now that's what we call as planning (& telling). hope there won't be any execution following that statement. we have lots of other things to worry about.

missing pieces

somebody took a bite of my chiem piang. i really wanna know who.

5 days to Arafah for my parents.

-may they be safe always in the hand of the Creator

Question of the day

after a long drive home and countless pit stops on the way, the only question i have when i reached home is :

is there a way for my car to slip in between the iron bars of the gate so that i don't have to open it?

i'm sure i'm not the only crazy one feeling like that, cause the one invented remote controlled gate most certainly feels the same. note to self : next time if (if) i have my own place, i'd make sure remote controlled gates are on top of my must-have list.

and remote controlled door, remote controlled shower, remote controlled dinner-maker, and of course remote controlled washing machines (that have it's own brain). cause washing machine this days still make you work!! blabs of the tired mind.

a daddy's girl story

when i was little, i remember so clearly where we lived. i didn't have a room, in fact nobody hav their own room. me and my siblings age gap isn't that big and i think everyone is still busy fighting for attention. we didn't have a room because we pretty much liked hanging out in our parents room. the truth is, the next room is haunted, yet nobody wants to admit that they are afraid.

i still remember how bouncy mom's hair was. "tarik semua rambut macam mau di ikat lepas tu tarik tinggi2, jgn lepas, baru baring...kalau begitu. rambut ayang nda kusut kalau bangun pagi" an advice i follow till today. dad wud take a late night shower and before going to bed i remember the smell of his talc. something that couldn't be erase from my head.

we lived a simple life, daddy a GM in an estate an hour away from Sandakan. i had no many friends since we lived in a colonial style house up in a hill. my companion are none other than my brothers, who found amusement in making me cry. we didn't have much to do, waited all day long for daddy to come home and tell on what my brothers did to me. we had a simple life, maybe because i was a little girl with no worries, or perhaps things were much simpler back then.

other than my brothers and some neighbors to play with, i have a big deer, like a lullaby machine -- pull it's string and it'd start spinning with a soft sound. that the only thing where i find refugee other than daddy's arm and mom's caress. i'd sit by the window and wait for daddy. "if a bed is attached to a wall is called a bunk, what do we call a sofa attached to a window?" a word that i keep on asking daddy and i never do remember. all i remember i sat there everyday, half past 4 to wait for daddy.

it's been 20 days since they are away, and i miss them so much. the 15 minutes i let myself cry in the bathroom feels more like i'm suffocating myself for i've kept it so long. i cry so loud in my heart, only i hear, hidden away from my sis -- afraid that she might have been keeping it to herself and not wanting to let it out.

it's been too long since they left, and too long before they'll be back. berserah segala supaya semua berada di bawah lindungan-Nya.

long long long time

life's getting slower. no recent updates. this is all due to no internet connections! =_=" somewhow my brains went to a freeze (more like a vacation).

i will start blogging soon, when i fix everything up. soon!!

this life is so slow~ :(