it's been too long

hi there stranger. been a long time since i last blogged.

I suppose, the only reason why i've been absent for so long is that i'm busy. super busy. with what? that, i'm not sure. i guess i just feel like everything is wrapped up in my own world.

i was lost, needless to say i was frantically searching a way out. but everything seems wrong and different. most of the things that hurt me the most the past 2-3 months would be myself, my acts, my failure to do something, friendships, commitments, and my world that totally flips upside down. i think i've caught the fever earlier than i thought i would. the middle-age crisis. only this would be like 7 years younger. to sum it all up, i was out of my comfort zone, facing things and doing things that i never imagine would go that way. i'm one well-planed bitch. and for it to go the other way around really upsets me. as for bad friendships, i guess i know how to choose now.

i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry...for these :

for the past 2-3 months, i haven't been out and about.
-->to make it fair, it was no fun for me either.

for the past 2-3 months, i have been picky with date arrangements
-->to make it fair, i have no time for myself too. to say no to your invitations made me feel bad for days.

for the past 2-3 months, i haven't been picking up calls
-->to make it fair, i don't even talk to myself anymore and i've lost touch of what i need

for the past 2-3 months, i haven't been myself....
to tell you the truth, it sux!

i have been better this past couple of weeks...getting life on track and my self-confidence back. been busy with work, and was sick (caught fever, this time, real fever XD).

though i'm still coughing badly, but i feel much better.
here's to a brighter future :)



by the way >>> above is what kept me occupied.