lesson learned

sometimes kita kena belajar cara yang 'jatuh bangunan' punya feeling untuk suatu hal tertentu. i guess, today aku belajar cara 'jatuh bangunan' on important things in life.

saat-saat begini (bila hari makin tua, nda dpt undur balik) rasanya bukanlah masa untuk berdalih dan berburuk sangka dgn ar-Ghafur, ar-Rahman, ar-Rahim. we should always be thankful that we have beautiful friends with big hearts, family that will always have our back, and rezeki yang diberi Sang Pencipta (gifts of Tomei hahaha). friends, my advice, sebelum berburuk sangka dgn Allah baik double check dulu diri tu patut terima sudah atau belum.

byk lagi manusia lain yang hidup nda ketentuan than this. apa pun pendirian yang aku pegang, if itu yang buat org takut or bikin skop pilihan mengecil (betul tu Ren), i don't care. yang penting pendirian tu yang buat kita ne KITA. if we keep on bergoyang ikut arah angin, org pun nda mo ikut kita. myb dunia aku belum kuat untuk pengaruh dunia org, insyaAllah, sampai masanya tetap semua akan berubah. apa pun batas yang ada, i'm glad that i have my own batas and berpegang kuat dengannya.

lesson learned!

aku hilang tanpa arah...
rindu hati pada sinar Mu...
wahai Tuhan aku lemah
hina berlumur noda
hapuskan lah, terangi lah,
jiwa dan jalan ku...
Ya Rabbi,
izin kan lah aku kembali pada Mu
meski mungkin takkan sempurna
aku sebagai hamba Mu
Berikanlah aku kesempatan Waktu,
aku ingin kembali
kembali.......... (opick-taubat)

p/s: siuk hari ne aku nangis ada org ikut nangis juga. eh silap, dia dulu nangis tgk aku kusut. tu baru namanya kaka. leng, kiutkan penyanyi opick tu. macam kiut si azmi hahahaha (aku sucks, aku tau)

SAYA BENCI TOMEI! satu kali masuk terus nda keruan. cis!

Ego?

on our way home from work today...

bro : Kalau mahkota perempuan letaknya di....?

me : rambut

bro : Kalau lelaki mahkotanya di....?

(sepantas kilat)
me : EGO!

bro : Krita la, pandai!

awwww....c bro, mau p 'pancing' ciwik bisuk...he said dari dulu zaman dia bawa motor pun dia always make sure motor kilat habisssss bila mau jumpa ciwik. 'padahal, tu motor cuma nampak tym dia mau naik ja, then sudah naik nda sudah nampak. sampai p parking lot, motor tu di tinggalkan juga! tapi betul bos...betul2 la pride and joy lelaki la kalau namanya KENDERAAN milik sendiri'

talking bout people starts dating....



....someone had their first date today!! nina and hirfy sitting by the tree! (sure lepas nina baca ne kena txt la aku...hii leng...laleng, tu ku simpan gambar katak ada crown lagi)

biani...

biani, ada dangan ngajaa aku..inda juwa tantu lah niat nya tu kan ngajaa..tapi yang panting, apa yang di padahnya aah ku ato, ku masukkan jadi pengajaan yang baik...

aku ne yang bana, kaas juwa usul mun kes2 gaya ani. tpi yang ani tah, antah pengajaannya atau pengajaa nya yang ada efek basaa sampai dpt masuk alam hati ani...

caita nya miani, biani aie ku kan putus asa sudah, aie ku inda kan melawan akan sudah, aie ku keasaan payah hantap, aie ato lah uwang ato bpadah 'lai, jaan tah cemani. alum tah tuun kepadang, bpatah tah kau kan mulih. alum lagi ko telihat lawan mu, sudah ko b'uja yang ko inda bulih. alum pun dangan tahu apa yang kita lawan akan ne, sudah ko b'unduu. lai, inda majal inda luih, luan di pajal mbaie jaih. saiepun bguna kan apa2, patut juwa di kada-kadaie. sebab kita ani wajib ingat juwa kan ketetapan Allah, Qada dan Qadar-Nya'

i'll always take that in my heart, and i'll never forget who told me that, although the battle is over, but i know that i did try. there's nothing that i'll regret, because we both tried. and it's true. semuanya ketetapan Allah, Qada dan Qadar-Nya.

at the tailor

hari ne me pegi hantar my jeans yang panjang tu ke ahsok di bawah minta potong. menyesal juga nda minta tolong di giordano potong terus kan. ini nda pasal2 melayang lagi RM 5. hmmm kalau di simpan kan bagus duit tu. lately saya semakin stingy. terima sajalah ya gaya ini saudara saudari, sebab ini adalah semua demi ASB yang sudah di apply. dlm 5 tahun nanti melatup la bank account. skrang ne ikat perut pun nda pa la.

then the ahsok cakap, 'amoi, lu tulis nama sini plastik, nanti senang mau ambil. saya cepat lupa punya, tau la sudah tua kan'. ingat ah, cara cakap the word tua is like this...TWA, ok? very chinese like style.

when she hand me the marker pen, secara automatik nya i open the cap and write on the plastic this aplhabets..... >>> S.Y.L.V.I.A.N.A

hahahahahahah sot kan? tapi nda pa, bukan juga dia cek i/c :P

different tag line every time, perhaps...?

i once told an ex, that anyone can change in a nick of time. i still strongly believe in that. tho is some circumstances, when other people change in a nick of time, it didn't feel as great as me telling people this theory (so that i can get away with 'changing').

and then there was the ever-famous mistake, which is berjodoh dgn tiga. the smartest stunt ever pulled. the longest battle ever fought. the feeling that would never change.

then there was this one time, i was watching the L-word, and Jenny asked Bette what would she do if she (Bette) saw herself at a bar, would she hit on herself, and date herself? being heart broken and all, Bette drunkenly answered "If i saw myself at a bar....i would RUN at the opposite direction..."

well, somehow i'm feeling that now.as much as it's a thing that i must do, a thing that needs to be done, i can't stop picturing myself as a horrible monster. i see myself as the guy that i NEVER wanted to date when i was in highschool. macam capi2, kejap2 tau apa di mau, kejap2 nda tau. let me get that straight. I was like the guys that i NEVER wanted to date EVER.

tapi kan ini soal hati?

all is fair in love and war. i guess itu tag line baru. i can't stay to please anybody, ok?
and it's not like since i'm going means i'm pleasing myself. the key word was FAIR ok? ALL is fair. whatever it is that made u sleepless all night long,should make me sleepless at least 2times more than u.

then, paling finishing punya tag line "SORRY,SHIT HAPPENS"

ouch, now u know why i should run the opposite direction when i see myself. tapi apa yang penting hidup itu inti nya ialah mencari Redha daripada Allah.

Kesedihan itu adalah suatu benda yang pasti dtg, tapi keharusan untuk kita bersedih itu tletak di tangan sendiri. Syukur Alhamdulillah, walaupun sedih in whatever i'm facing daily, i know that kesedihan itu hanya berbuah sebab saya mbuat apa pun menggunakan batasan Agama, dan kesenangan org itu berbuah dari jahil nya diri mereka. that's enough to make me feel 'enough'.

nda apa la yang ini tlepas, permintaannya luar batas agama dan kepercayaan. pasti benda ne dtg balik2 (this type of problem) kalau belum lagi ikhlas untuk terima ajaran dari Allah.

tag line skrang?

siapa paling single di kk ne kalau bukan.............

we would always have your back...

that's what friends are for...
cian my gumuk noniey...
babe, i'd always love u babe, no matter what...
u'd always be my number one sista! (shhhh jan gitau tini, dia tu number one orang kanan!)
thru all the things, none can be changed,
i wish i can, but this is a lesson God wanted you to face...
we'd always be here babe :)

on a lighter note,
BACATTTTTTTTTTTTT sangat today!!!
i went home and nampak ada kencing tikus!!
cisssss sebel!!!
sudah lah bkencing, dekat tmpt solat lagi tu!!
habis me p mop lantai dgn clorox...
jgn kasi can!
si nina kasi ketawa ne, geli hati dia ngkali my room mcm jungle life :(
ni malam,
tikus...ko akan feast on hotdog yang mentah..
hotdog mentah yang ku pasang dlm jerat!
selama ini aku jiwa2 lagi mau bunuh tikus,
but tomorrow, if caught,
i'd make sure i'm the one yang rendam ko dlm air (bercampur clorox)
wahahahahahahaha
penjahat, pembawaan game silent hill kali ne ah?

malam ne siuk la me tidur...
the 'one' i wanted to add in fs sudah on the way...
kalau bisuk2 sudah approve...
awassssssss
bak kata tini 'lancar kan gatal!'
kalau di garuk sedap macam pizza hahahahaha
jodoh aku tu, jgn kamu kacau!

2009 konon mo paktoh. tinguk2 bisuk sudah bsunde.
ngam la.
jiwa betul.

sepa paling single di sabah ne kalau bukan..............

TODAY I BUY GAME SILENT HILL.

begitu sajalah jalan cerita hidup saya hari ne.
i'm gonna switch off the light now, and play the game. walaupun la game yang kena release for PSP on Nov last year. yang penting main.
bila sudah geram, hentak ja kepala zombie tu kuat-kuat kan?
boleh lah imagine them as R or AD.
i'd be gentle-r with R. sama AD, kenapa la pecah!
main ko ngak!
hari ne jalan, lewat sampai rumah. nda sempat tgk 90210 yang baru...
makan di Hana, bilang nda lapar, tapi me juga yang ranking ambil sushi balik2 tu.
smart.
jumpa noniey tadi...
baby ku, u gumuk!!! heheheeh
ondo cayang cayang wawing ku :D

life, being single

it was SCARY at first, for the thoughts of being single made me huru-hara inside. how would it feel to be single? hmmmm....bila fikir lama-lama, i was never really single (since i started dating lah). i was out courting one and the next one when i'm done. i guess, i'm the type who can't stand being alone maybe?

ok, so that sounded bad. perhaps i was the flirty type.

.... *cricket sound* oh well, there is no sane way for me untuk membela diri. i date people ok, i happen to be the lucky one who's always courting, right.

sekali i went single dis time....adehhhhhhhhhhhhh...let me share with you ah how it felt.

1. now, i'm always the 3rd wheel when i'm out with my friends yang nda single.
2. then even the single friends pun ada love interest. jiey? kosong.
3. ..... *cricket sound* susah bah me mau describe dis babe, tapi it just sucks big time!

suddenly, si jiey, so hyperactive ne. hari-hari pun
work, work, work
sale, sale, sale
pastu if sudah dpt byk hasil kerja yang keras
buy, buy, buy (ya betul Ren, saya jenis tidak sayang duit, but wait until ko kenal nina. pengsan ko tgk dia spend)
pastu kalau sudah sedih
pray, pray, pray harder
kalau sudah hati gusar,
semua benda mau di kemas, mau di bersihkan.

mom : sejak bila pandai bersih ne bilik? ur bathroom pun u scrub every other day?
me : mom, itu dulu. xpandai bkemas. messy sepah segala tu bukan cara hidup Islamic mom, semak serabut ayang tinguk

padahal... roll eyes 2x big time!

nina bilang, eleeeeeehhh bersih2 tu practice hidup cari laki.
so wrong. my paktoh year is 2009.

for now, i'm gonna be single.
lonely...but not alone!
i have Allah with me.......hasbunallah wanikmal wakil
BAC pun karas bah di blakang support selalu...
oh, i'm so loved!